I am sitting in the middle of the cold hard pew minding my own business when the soloist begins singing the offertory song.
She sounds like an angel, and this particular song brings back so many memories of my childhood in this church, in this very same pew.
I look around me, a few of my friends’ parents and former choir member friends are here. It is all so familiar, yet different too. I look up to the front of the church, notice “AMDG” over the altar, and suddenly I cannot prevent the tears from springing into my eyes.
I don’t want to start crying in church.
I don’t want people to think there’s something wrong with me.
This feeling…it is difficult to put into words. There is sadness, but there is also joy…I guess some would call it a feeling of nostalgia.
I look up to prevent the tears from spilling onto my cheeks and I see this…
Although there isn’t a caption underneath the image, I think it is the story of the woman who washed Jesus’ feet. I just had a “moment” with this profound story of forgiveness last month: a different kind of sunday school.
How can it be that I’ve been coming to this church for over forty-five years (45 years!) and I somehow never made the connection to this stained glass window? I smile because I feel my friend, Carrie’s presence behind the thin veil.
It’s interesting that this week’s lesson for my Positive Psychology class is also focused on religion, spirituality and its impact on well-being. The researchers have hypothesized that religion impacts mental and physical health because of the following:
- Religion provides social support.
- Religion supports healthy lifestyles.
- Religion promotes personality integration.
- Religion promotes generativity and altruism.
- Religion provides unique coping strategies.
- Religion provides a sense of meaning and purpose. ~Compton & Hoffman, Positive Psychology, pg. 233
In addition they note, “Religion can provide hope, offer reasons for unexpected and unwanted stressors, help people place their lives in a larger framework, and create renewed purpose and meaning.” (pg. 233)
I guess I never thought of my religion or spirituality in terms of my well-being, but this morning I understand it. I feel hopeful and grateful.
I am also smiling…my mom and grandma would LOVE that I have become a church lady. :o)
#187. Bought a Streetwise from a gentleman in the neighborhood.
#186. Cleaned up bathroom (picked up paper towels, wiped down counter) at movie theater bathroom.
*AMDG means “For the Greater Glory of God” and was one of my mom’s favorite expressions.